My Religious Life Thus Far

I am a 34 year old married Reporting Analyst from Dallas, TX. I have suddenly been smacked over the head with the desire to find God. So far, no luck. But I'm trying really darn hard.

I was raised in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, also known as the Mormons or the LDS church. I was LDS until I was about 21. Although I had not put a whole lot of thought into it, I was pretty certain it was true. Then, long story short, I got a hold of some "anti" literature, read anti literature like a fiend, and became "inactive" in the church.

After my inactivity in the church, I started going to the Catholic church and attending RCIA classes. I never had any formal initiation into the church, nor did I go to classes for very long. But I knew I was drawn to the Catholic church.

For whatever reason, I can't remember what (it probably involved my social life), I stopped going. I got out of college, and dabbled in Wicca for about a year or so. While I never joined a coven, I read like crazy about it. I also attended a Unitarian Universalist church for a while.

When I hit 27, I decided to give the Mormon church one more try. Just one. I went to a singles ward, paid tithing, prayed constantly and fervently, held callings, and even went through the temple to receive my endowments. This is a very serious commitment for any Mormon to take. I did this for three years and - nothing. No validation of God, or of Christ, or of the truth of the church.

Soon after my final bout of inactivity, around 2001, I met my husband. We dated, we got married. He's a baptized Catholic, but never went to church, and was only baptized to appease his grandparents on his mother's side. As a couple, we've only attended church maybe a dozen times, to my parent's Mormon church, to a local Mormon church (during a time of extreme crisis), and to a couple of Catholic weddings. We did try to go to a Unitarian church, but that didn't work at all either.

Over the past year or so, I've been doing a fairly active search on religions. I've researched Buddhism, which I still like theoretically. But I thought I'd try going to the little Catholic church down the street from where I live first.

This is how my story begins. I'll blog about my journey, my thoughts and my actions in this blog. Thanks for listening.